A Cold Walk on Blyth Beach and some thoughts on Motherhood and Working

Yesterday I went for a walk on Blyth beach with my daughter. I was a work-a-holic, but I’ve relaxed a bit since I had my baby girl.

I think 2020 has really taken it’s toll, it’s caused so much anxiety and stress, and I’ve struggled with the pandemic alot. As has the rest of the world.

Financially my income has halved since I started blogging, but I know that this is only for the short term. Everything I put my mind to, I work hard at it. So I am determined to make blogging a success! I’m also training as a social media marketer, so I can do that on the side.

It might take me longer than a traditional job, but that’s not to say it’s not possible. That’s what we do here on this blog. We believe in ourselves.

I think what appealed to me about blogging, was the idea of staying at home, looking after the kids and being able to fit work around it. I also like the idea of being able to work anywhere in the world.

I can’t say it’s been an easy transition, like I mentioned before. I’ve had to do this solo, with no mentor, blue print and almost zero funds, but I just love it so much. I couldn’t imagine going back to a traditional work place.

Part of the reason is due to badly paid jobs over the years, another part is frustration. I’ve always worked in jobs that I was too qualified for, probably because I lacked confidence and it’s in my nature to help people who need it! I was never given the promotions I deserved. I didn’t believe in myself. But right now at this moment in time, I do.

I’ve also got this overwhelming urge to connect with people and help others. There’s too much negativity in this world, I want to add something positive.

As a mother I’ve always felt this internal inner pull and struggle. When I work I feel like I’m stuck between what is right. On one hand I want to go to work and earn money. I don’t want a partner to feel the stress of being the only one to bring home an income.

On the other hand I feel guilty at work, I am there, because of money and I am not there for my children. It’s like a constant tug of war. Whatever I do I seem unable to get the balance right, that is until I found blogging.

I know that the struggle financially will be short lived. Blogging is something you have to commit to. It’s something that will improve in the long run. It’s not a get rich quick thing- not that I’m sure those things even exsist.

Nobody that I know blogs, but here online I have come to find so many wonderful people that do this too. I wonder how many of you are mothers? Let me know in the comments below. Do you struggle with the mum/ work thing?

I am so much enjoying being a mother to my children even if it means I am not socially fitting into the mould of what people think is right. A few weeks ago I joined the mama’s talk money summit online and I was just blown away by all the inspirational women on there doing talks.

It made me feel strong in my decision. I think that’s the thing about confidence you have to be prepared to take the leap of faith, make the jump and face the fall if it comes. Whatever happens, starting this blog was the best decision I’ve made. That’s why I called it Today.

Even if people I know laugh at me, or think I’m crazy, I like what I’m doing here. I like who I am connecting with, and for the first time in a very long time I am excited and looking forward to the future, (and also being able to be a mother at the same time).

I hope you have an awesome day everyone, remember to believe in yourself. You’re the only person that can push for your dreams and make them happen.

Peace,

Soph.