I really enjoyed photographing this set of photographs, I couldn’t create anything for weeks, and then boom! It’s like a flood of ideas that all come rushing in at once and I don’t know how to get it all done.

I’m really intrigued to know if anyone else gets floods of creativity like this? Let me know in the comments below. It really is the strangest feeling, surely I can’t be the only one? But I must admit It’s such a relief to feel like me again!

I’ve been using my non-creative time wisely and re-doing old articles, updating where necessary, but as satisfying as that is, I love that I’m making fresh content again. I got a bit worried for a while like I’d lost my superpowers if you know what I mean?

It was so hot yesterday, so I dug out my little vintage red mini dress. It’s pinched in at the waist, so it makes my waist look amazing (somehow) and because I’m so short, the small length makes my legs look a bit longer.

When I start some photography I rarely have a plan, I just kind of have a vision of what I want them to look like and I go for it and see what happens. I live life like this, I guess I’m a little impulsive.

My mind jumps to the strangest places afterward when I’m overlooking what I’ve made. For some reason, these photographs triggered my memory of modeling rejection which is kind of weird, but maybe it was something I needed to heal? The mind works in mysterious ways.

I was told I was “too short” to be a model, which sucks because I think I would have been quite good at it…

What’s funny is that I could have changed just about anything with surgery (not that you should) except my height, I was so hungry for it, thank goodness it was my height! Who knows what I would have done back then when my insecurities were in the driving seat.

Maybe it was the root of some of my insecurity when I was younger? I did use to feel like I wasn’t good enough. In fact so much so that it held me back in life…

I will say over the past ten years it has been amazing to see a change in body types, there are now petite models and plus-size ones, but it wasn’t like that when I was young.

I used to collect Vogue magazines and study them and dream about owning designer clothes… who am I kidding? I still do…. but as I’ve got older I’ve realised there is so much more to this life. I wish back then I’d had the confidence to believe in myself like I do now.

I just want to say that if anyone reading this has body hang up’s, just know that we all do. Working on your inner confidence is far more important than anything else you’ll ever do on the outside.

I was told I was beautiful

But what does that mean to you

Look into the mirror who’s inside there

TLC, Unpretty

I used to love that song, it’s true though, I’m the curviest and oldest I’ve been, but I’m also the happiest I’ve ever been.

Accepting myself has been an extremely difficult journey, but I finally do, curves and all. Truly what people like in others is their confidence, looks aren’t really important.

That’s a piece of wisdom I wish I’d known years ago. Now I work on myself (inside) every day and I’m achieving things I only could have dreamed of back then.

Introspection and healing take time and confidence is simply a skill that you can learn.

Photography

I went for a vintage feel again, with a cheeky pin-up gal-style smile…

I used low lighting and softened the lens. I wanted my red dress to be bold and the background to be delicate, in a feminine way.

Who says you can’t be cute and curvy?

Learning to love who you are is the first step to great success. Once you’ve mastered this who knows what you’ll achieve?

Have a bold and bright day. Be strong, be confident, you got this.

Soph.

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